nausea.
there's been a lingering nausea here in me for the last few days
and I don't know what it's about.
because nothing has changed.
nothing has changed.
and I don't know if it's me or if it's them, or if it's you.
is it inside or is it outside
because nothing has changed.
nothing has changed.
but a lot has changed.
and my outlook has started to turn around.
and my desires have started to shift.
and my demeanor has started to lighten up.
and a lot has changed.
a lot has changed.
but nothing has changed.
because the wandering has become even heavier.
and the strain has grown deeper.
and the habits are still there.
but I think a lot's changed.
and I know that you have made me want to be better,
but you've made me want to be indifferent too.
I need to care
but not because of you.
but because of You.
and not for me.
but all for me.
and i think I've changed. but I don't know if I've changed. and I hope I change. and I know I shouldn't change.
and the nausea is still here.